Cellar Door

In light of it still being cold and windy
Even though I do think warm wind is more inviting
Things sound nice don't they?
I think so.
It's getting better.
Don't you think so?
Soon it'll be like second nature.
Just wait a little longer
I hate to ask it but it's all I have
A dark musty room and a dwindling candle
The most inviting thing I have
Will soon become a room for two
With a piano taking up half the space
And of course your cello right beside it
(where it should be)
And I've always wanted a chandelier

Thanks for the Chivalry

Your jacket is wet
And it's also been muffling my frustrations.
It's not that I don't want you to know
It's because I'm just wanting to be happy,
I want us to be happy
I'm working on getting better
And I have to ignore it for a bit,
The frustration that is.
I'm so glad I kept the jacket on.
It's been warming up lonely nights.

Still Here

If you close your eyes and look into it all
Place your hand on your heart and feel it beat
Listen to the sound of the sweet breeze
The breeze that is so warm and tastes like Arabian spices
I'm quite certain you'll feel it
You'll know and understand why this is happening
Sometimes it takes crying in a dark room for a couple weeks to get it
But you eventually will figure it out
You'll get that sometimes you need to close your eyes
Sometimes you need to cry
Sometimes you need to do things to understand the good in life
To realize how precious the times are when you don't have to worry
I've come to find that it's times like this when I grow
I know who my friends are
I know who I care about
And even though right now I don't have much to say
And whatever I do say doesn't have much significance
That doesn't mean I'm bored
It doesn't mean I'm tired of any of it
I simply means I'm working out some of the kinks
But I feel much better now and I'd like to get to talking about things
Important things that do matter
I'm feeling much stronger and feeling like I can make it now
You are my shoulder, my smile, my peace
You have kept me going
I can not forget this
So know that I'm feeling better and I'm getting back
Also know that through all of this:
Through all the fights, the annoyances, the deep sighs
I am still entranced with your eyes
My breath is still stolen from me when I see you
I am still here and I still love you

A Note of Encouragement

This goes out to the person you haven't met yet
And maybe they're rollin around in the hay with someone else
But they're not as good as you'll be
You just gotta wait your turn
He's out there, She's out there
They're just learning what to contrast you against

Grow Up

Masquerades
Flashes of rouge
Anger Malice Fear
Striking Beauty
Passionate looks
That's all she ever has
She's the one they keep looking at
Are they judging or sighing in wonder?
I perceive it as judgement
Eyes that see through you
That scares me deeply
You should really go outside and look at the stars
It makes everything seem so distant and kind
Even when it's screaming right in your face
Challenges are scary
And so is the feeling of being different
But it's good
It's very good
And your eyes must do some rainin'
If you're ever gonna grow

What I Did Today

I have two words
Two words I've longed to say
Almost as much as those 3 words
but still... two words
Leaning in
Grabbing your jacket
Touching your face
My fingertips on your lips
My hand holding your face
Forgetting what I did today
And what happened last Monday
And only you know
Only you know what happened last Monday
And what I did today
So dearest I have two words for you
Kiss Me
Long and Hard

And They Laughed

I can barely breathe
It's hot and sweaty and painful
My heart is racing
I'm not ready for this.
Children are not meant to be hurt.
They are meant for snow angels and bursting giggles
Small hands that fit perfectly into my shaky palms
She's bruised and broken
There's nothing I can do.
My sweet little baby,
My hurt sweet little baby.
Never say you'll never hurt someone
You might without even meaning to
And that is what you can never take back
It's what you can not live with
And what you can not sleep with
Nightmares
Tossing
Turning
Screaming...
It's replaying in my mind over and over
No, things like this are not supposed to happen