Aretha had it all figured out..

I will never cut my hair for a man again.

I will never allow him to make my decisions.

I will never allow him to tell me what to do.

I will never allow him to tell me what to believe.

I will never allow him to shut me off from anyone.

I gave love, honor, respect and received evil.

I was not perfect. But I was caring.

He needed perfect. Too damn bad.

I am not and will never bend to a man's will again.

Today I am a new woman with new strengths.

I will love like no one ever has.

I will show honesty and kindness to all.

I will be loved for who I am,

not for the person you turned me into.

I am me. Not anyone else.

I am a person who has hopes and dreams,

and you will not take them away from me.

I will be respected from this day forward.

Rants of all colors and sizes

Fuck this 'heartbreak' shit.

If you want love,

Prepare your heart.

Because love is a bitch that rips you up and breaks you down.

Get ready.

It's on it's way and it's gonna have a beautiful face.

With smart eyes that peel back your shell,

Black hair that burns in your mind.

And you'll fall head over heels.

And years later you'll realize...

Shit...I'm not ready for this.

And when you feel that,

Run...run hard

because love will eat you up.

It'll break your heart.

In an ice rink when you see he's cheating

In his car in front of Panera (even though you wanted him back)

And on the phone. twice.

Don't tell me you cared.

I already know that.

Show me what it really meant.

Don't fuck with me now.

I'm ready

And I'll kick your ass if you even try to control me

I'm on a rampage and I'm not releasing this until you do.

I loved you and didn't know how to show it.

I've been lied to, controlled, beaten and other things

And I've done them to. Especially to you.

And I broke you.

And you in turn broke me.

Congrats... now we're both fucked.

Confession

I have unfinished business with 10 people.

Here we come, honesty train wreck.

Every so often you need to take a day

And be blunt with everyone you've fucked over.

It'll make life a hell of a lot simpler.

Tell them I'm sorry and quit regretting your life.

Honesty day...

Begins tomorrow.

Blame it on the fact that I still get irritated with you.

Go Rhett Butler

You are not your fucking khakis.

It's always that last look that is important.

Right before you look away

and realize you won't see him for a while.

Touch is easily forgotten

But when his eyes burn in your mind

... insomnia begins

A little twisted it may be.

A little unconventional.

Meh, who gives a shit anyway

We're all too high to notice.

He followed me back

And sat in my room

Watched me sleep

Turned each corner with me

Held my hand.

At least I wished he did.

Sleep was the only way to fully see him

And it was now impossible.

His eyes are the most beautiful thing in the world.

Deep pools that both calm and alert you,

make you curse your life for days.

But now, quite frankly, I don't give a damn.

Kinda.

Uneasy

It's a bitch to not know where you stand

with about 5 people.

Patterns fade to gray

as the kaleidoscope melts in our laps

It wasn't beautiful after all.

Books about love and all it has to offer

only pinpoint those small significant moments

that make life worth living.

Everything else is shit.

I learned something from someone very dear to me:

Don't you get it already?

You aren't your mom

You aren't your books

You're.. you

A mess with no direction,

falling apart when you hear reminders of the past,

A gentle hurricane with no fear but heart like a child.

Don't lose that. Forget perfection and all of it's lies

Be a mess. Be a nasty bitch sometimes.

It is what it is.

When you find who you are, things heal.

But until then, fall apart.

Life isn't tomorrows.

It's the day after yesterday and you're stuck in it

Love her, love him

and when it's gone, remember it for what it was.

It's the hardest pill to swallow, but best you'll ever take

Give it time.

Time doesn't heal all,

It just makes it easier to forget the past.

Yeah, I still love people who have forgotten me.

And that's ok. It's ok to find love somewhere else.

It's ok to still be broken and falling apart

Just remember who you are in this moment.

A Ghost I'm Trying to Forget

I no longer think of your voice or your kiss

but when i am kissed i only see your face

and i don't want to.

I see not the face of my lover, but of a ghost.

One who broke me completely,

but who is now a ghost.

Where are you?

In the cool crisp winds of Michigan?

I miss you and I don't know why.

That final night where you would not look at me hardly.

It rings in my mind and keeps me awake at night.

You are still here.

And I see you everywhere and you just won't leave

A Final Parting to an Unfulfilled Dream.

I woke up screaming your name last night.
And I don't know why.

But to say my final peace,
because for some reason my dreams
refuse to think i have,

I loved you,
we fucked it up,
i'm sorry it had to be that way.

Good luck up there,
just don't forget who you are.