freckles show up this time of year

The wind towards the North
I'm finally feeling the strength beneath my wings
And the light-heartedness is back.
I can breathe with ease
And sip something sweet on my back porch swing.
The smell of a free life.
Concerts in the summer on late nights
Snapping fingers and soulful laughter
Light summer skirt and a gray tank top
Hair pulled back in a messy fashion
The lantern lights are bright
And i have love to show.
I'm willing to try.
Let me show you.
I have new life and i'm wanting to share it
The door is open
And I'm sitting in the rocking chair on the right.

Self Portrait

It fell bringing silence with it.
The ruffled rose on cold car door
The keys staring back at me
with an expecting patience
To play a beautiful melody.
But my trills, triplets, beats
Have left my memory.
I sit in the stilled room
with the cold wind racing in the open window
The white curtains float and fly
As to reach and caress the beautiful wood
Dressed in cream with pearls pinned in my hair.
A storm has just passed and it's quiet
The last bits of rain play as they fall.
Turning with a hopeful glint in my eyes
I climb out and run with bare feet and open arms

Violin Melodies

Up and down
Up and down
in synchronized melodies
A black dress
A bow tie
Even the children stared
with their innocent enchantment
of chasing fireflies on a midsummer's night
crowns made of flowers and curled ribbon
Their freckles and rosy cheeks
made us all think of our days
Even though the years have formed a clouded abstraction
of what we used to do.
She makes me think of that just by simply sitting down
And dragging her bow across the strings

Cellar Door

In light of it still being cold and windy
Even though I do think warm wind is more inviting
Things sound nice don't they?
I think so.
It's getting better.
Don't you think so?
Soon it'll be like second nature.
Just wait a little longer
I hate to ask it but it's all I have
A dark musty room and a dwindling candle
The most inviting thing I have
Will soon become a room for two
With a piano taking up half the space
And of course your cello right beside it
(where it should be)
And I've always wanted a chandelier

Thanks for the Chivalry

Your jacket is wet
And it's also been muffling my frustrations.
It's not that I don't want you to know
It's because I'm just wanting to be happy,
I want us to be happy
I'm working on getting better
And I have to ignore it for a bit,
The frustration that is.
I'm so glad I kept the jacket on.
It's been warming up lonely nights.

Still Here

If you close your eyes and look into it all
Place your hand on your heart and feel it beat
Listen to the sound of the sweet breeze
The breeze that is so warm and tastes like Arabian spices
I'm quite certain you'll feel it
You'll know and understand why this is happening
Sometimes it takes crying in a dark room for a couple weeks to get it
But you eventually will figure it out
You'll get that sometimes you need to close your eyes
Sometimes you need to cry
Sometimes you need to do things to understand the good in life
To realize how precious the times are when you don't have to worry
I've come to find that it's times like this when I grow
I know who my friends are
I know who I care about
And even though right now I don't have much to say
And whatever I do say doesn't have much significance
That doesn't mean I'm bored
It doesn't mean I'm tired of any of it
I simply means I'm working out some of the kinks
But I feel much better now and I'd like to get to talking about things
Important things that do matter
I'm feeling much stronger and feeling like I can make it now
You are my shoulder, my smile, my peace
You have kept me going
I can not forget this
So know that I'm feeling better and I'm getting back
Also know that through all of this:
Through all the fights, the annoyances, the deep sighs
I am still entranced with your eyes
My breath is still stolen from me when I see you
I am still here and I still love you

A Note of Encouragement

This goes out to the person you haven't met yet
And maybe they're rollin around in the hay with someone else
But they're not as good as you'll be
You just gotta wait your turn
He's out there, She's out there
They're just learning what to contrast you against